thinking about me being home 7 days from now dont really excite me.. in fact, talking about irony, i felt much more comfortable here than i first came.. i'm comfortable with the friends around me, i'm comfortable with the work and i'm comfortable with the weather (but not food).. everything seems to be going well when you realize you are on your way back.. sigh..
not only that, i found myself closer to the officers than ever, especially my OC, whom i look up to and truly respect.. because of this det, it gave us more time together, chatting and knowing each other.. a very smart and organized person, he taught me a lot of things.. but to think about it, such thing wouldnt happen if we were in sqn.. things would be going so fast, saying "hi" would even be as hard.. but i'm grateful to have time like this..
i'm really thinking a lot.. what do i want to do in life? where will i be heading after this? who will be the one with me?
but today's QT taught me something.. from the book of Mark, talking about people boosting their wealth as the offer them as offerings, showing off the amount they give.. however, this poor person came by, dropped in 2 dimes worth almost nothing was seen by Jesus.. and He told his disciples that this poor person has given more than rich person who gave because the 2 dimes is what he has left..
i hope mum understands.. it's not how many people i can help if i cross over to Thailand, but the time and service i can offer for God and for his people... all those bible verses, God's words are already set in front of my eyes.. how can i not obey? are they not obvious enough? what i have left, i will give.. i may not be rich but least i have is a pair of hands to help, shoulders to carry, a heart to love, time to sacrifice... that's all i want.. nothing beats a smile in return, a "thank you" and a big hug.. i never want to be rich or busy earning big money.. this is what i want.. i dont ask for recognition, i dont ask for fame... if it's God's calling, i wont be stopped..