and the Ks got along well with my littke god-son... cheers~
trust me, during the bus ride, it was a ride of a lifetime.. the moment i reached home this night, i written everything i felt onto my personal journal book.. i didnt want to missed out or forget what had happened.. here go..
1) i asked gawain if he remembered what i bought for him on his birthday but he guessed wrongly.. then, jireh, who overheard tried to guess it and he was right the first guess.. haha.. it was a cup with our photo printed on it.. and gawain said to me excitedly that he used it every day with milo in it.. =D
2) while boarding the bus, the kids were split into two groups.. and i was like the last to board.. so i opened one of the back door of the van and i saw my little gawain there.. i didnt hesitate and i boarded instantly.. and as he sat beside me, he said he was tired and he was lying on my shoulders (more of chest), and sleep.. of course, here and there, he was awaken and chat a little.. but i must say, i will never forget the entire trip..it was so warm and loving..
3) i notice gawain was a little moody at a later part of the night before performance.. then i went to ask him what's wrong, and if he was okay.. he came close to my ears and whispered, "i'm afraid of dying." and i was stunned.. he said he cant imagine the kind of death, or even closing his eyes and never open it, even though he knew he would go heaven.. i really felt him, and understand the feelings he had.. and so, i held on to his both hands, looked into his eyes and said, "gawain, you must have faith. dont worry, i'll be there.. and we'll meet each other in heaven when we die. trust me, if i die first, i'll be waiting for you in heaven." and i also told him that he would make me very sad too when i see him so moody and unhappy.. and he smiled.. he smiled at me.. that was the best smile i got from him..
come to think about it.. i actually thought of what kind of death i would go thought.. and it could possibly be scary.. but look, i'm thinking of it like at this age. and gawain is like 10 years old.. he's sensible and mature.. hope he has more faith and grows up to become a man after God's heart. and as i promised, i'll never stop caring for him, never will i stop showering my love and care for him..
and honestly, the kids did so well during their performance and they deserve a pat on the back.. it was really a great experience... hope they enjoyed it...
we took that photo after the performance.. and as the Ks left the place, my eyes followed them.. i just cant bear to part.. and the most touching thing was, kester suddenly stopped with an "AH!"
sound.. he turned back, ran towards me and gave me a BIG
hug.. ohh, i almost melted
.. hahaha.. then keith came by to hug me too.. i tell you, that was what you'll never forget in years to come.. how i love them soo...
and after that, i knew my little boy was darn tired.. but he really did an excellent job, singing, dancing and smiling thoughtout the performance.. and i carried him as he slept on my shoulders all the way back to seng kang..