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why do i have the feeling like this coming christmas is going to be a bad one?

already,

some people walk out from me,
parents quarrel,
friend not helping,
people "eat" their words,
almost lost someone i love a lot,
people lied to me,
being ignored through smses,
drifting away from God...

blah blah blah...

why do i want christmas to go away?

can you feel that i'm sad? painful on the inside, yet smiling on the outside? that's the worst and hardest thing to do... or maybe i'm pissed? or i'm tired? of lies? or i'm not appreciated? or ****!!!

*SCREAM!!*

go away everyone... just go away... hypocrates!! liars!! you dont know how to appreciate, just tell me... dont make me like you like a fool... you said you do, but do you? $%^&*# shit you!!why do you always need to cause pain to me?


*on the above notes were many people involved...
they simply disappoint me too much...
i'm just down, very down...
and if you want to console me, dont... if you're going to lie again...
i'm just stupid... cannot see your true colours...
CAN YOU STOP LYING TO ME!!!
why are my tears falling?
will i feel better?
will i always be alone?


WHO CAN I TRUST NOW?

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