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HELP..`~!!!

ahh... i've been going down to st anne's church kindergarten everyday and boy oh boy, i'm falling in love with all the children there... especially the new kids... they, including the "old ones" are like my "energy" and always refreshing me, keeping my worries out... every moment, i'm waiting for the clock to tick at 8am and praying hard that 2.30pm wont approach that soon...

BUT!!! after that 2.30pm, i'm like a struggling joker without a sense of urgency, no inkling about how bad it would be if comes friday, in the examination hall, i know nothing about anything the paper is asking... bad Bad BAD..!!! i hate it when i started reading my notes, a blink of eye, it's dark outside my window and HEY, i'm still at the same page... it's really frustrating... it's been 3 days...!!! i hate studying, and it's not my thing... can someone just tell me what to study? i'm pissed...!! so pissed!!! nothing seemed to go into my head... what's cerebral palsy? what's spinal benfica? who's Down? ASD? ADHD? **** all...

i dun care... i'm going to bed and wake up at 3.35am to watch Barcelona v.s Chelsea... good luck to all my other classmates...














































"Lord, i offer my life to you..."

hope you are listening to my cry.
hope you are looking at my struggle.

can't live without you.
can't study without you.

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