Joey_("v")_Jesus

after this thailand trip, it has changed me a lot, a lot...

Hello... i'm back from singapore...!!! upon this trip, i seriously dreaded coming back. i felt so attached there, not the food but the people, especially the children. i really thank God that i had this opportunity to go and experience myself in mae sai. life is so ultra different. and the children, they are so different. i really miss them. i felt so close to them, although sometimes, i dunno what they are talking and they dunno what i was saying. the children gave me a feeling that words cannot describe, yet i just know that i want to be with them and i am very comfortable being with them. this might be the second time i went there, however, the impacts made were different. i really didnt feel like coming back. there are many things deep inside my heart and mind and they are not easy to describe or be said easily, but i really have so much compassion for these shan and thai people. i can definitely say that this will not be my last trip there. i believe God has a plan for me in t...

in another 13 hours or so, i'll be on air!!! i mean aeroplane... hahahaa... i'm heading to Thailand and will be back on 27th dec... miss me? lol... well, if you dont already know, I HAVE AERO-PHOBIA!!! hahaaha.... so please pray for me my dear brothers and sisters in Christ... (: wanna thank God so so much that i could have this opportunity to go for this mission trip... as these 2 weeks are my term break, i ought to have make-up lessons... however, and believe me, it is not coincident but planned already by my dearest Heavenly Father... my make-up classes are only till today, which make me not skip any one of them... i love you Jesus... Monday as i did my EC project, which we have to record a conversation with a child, i did with my lovely Ray... however, before the conversation starts, he looked dull and sad... i pressed the record button and said, Me: come, sit with me... what happened to you? ...silence...... 10 seconds.... Me: tell me tell me... what happened? silence........

aww... sianz... projects are piling up... and i am still as slack... -.-" going Thailand for Mission Trip on 22 Dec MORNING!!! anybody wanna see me off? hahaa... 630am at changi, thurs... lol...!!! choreographing the dances to perform in Thailand... however, i was reminded about some people's undeveloped eye-hand coordination... hahahaa.... but hope God will do whatever He wants... either improve the person's eye-hand coordination, or give me the wisdom to create more easy yet nice dance... God will make a way... Where there seems to be no way... please continue to keep us in prayers, us we are going to serve the needy and uneducated people... moreover, as what Kat said that we are going to a place where spiritual realm is different... therefore, we truely need your prayers... people going are: 1) Me 2) Lynnette Chen 3) Dawn Tan 4) Jasmine Tan 5) Aaron Quay 6) Wayne Ko 7 & 8) number 6's parents 9 & 10) Kat and Alan thanks!!! Christmas is coming... haiz... yet m...

I miss my little angel drummer, Ethan... :(

Joey, you have officially and successfully completed reading the second story book, "Suzzane's Diary for Nicholas" by James Patterson in your entire 18 years of life... good job!!

look at the time now!!! hmm, 10.34am... on a wednesday morning... that would be Elizabeth's lesson... who, with a laptop wouldnt play with it? my God.... who she's talking to? last friday was st anne's last day of school... while many children are rejoicing because their holidays starts the next day, i was moaning because this very day was the last day i see my K2 children before they proceed to their individual primary school... it was so hard for me to leave... i had already missed the first lesson this morning... i had to push and drag myself to step out of the class and the church... pain and brokenness drenched over me... i just cant let go!!! oh oh oh, how i will miss them terribly... i reached school with a heart not with me, a soul wandering around and a mind not working... people around me will know how i feel... though i dont really explain or describe, but actions speak louder than words... i want to pray for them, not to remember me but not to forget me... i...

sometimes, it's better not to know something than to know.... i was on the bus and i flipped open my wallet... i saw this green paper, like a shinning star struck my sight... and immediately i shouted, "SHIT!!!" it was my god-ma's kindergarten concert ticket... basket... i was so anxious about what's the date before i opened it... "11 Nov" was writen on the ticket... arggghh.... missed it! just watched my concert DVD... arggghh... the camera man is an idiot... dun even fit to be called a camera man... basket... dunno how to video... @#$%^!*?

it's been a long time since i last blog... i lost my wireless connection position at home... now i'm just lazy to go downstairs my house to just use internet... moreover, the mosquitoes have no mercy... WED. 2Nov school starts!!! so happy that i could see my friends again... was late on the first day of school... darn!!! well, i still have to thank God for my friends... they are still with me after all my craps and jokes... hahaha... i pray for them for more patience too because since school starts, they will be with this irritating little baby kangaroo... hahaa.... :) WED. 9 Nov now i'm in school, having ITA class and i'm blogging... FRI. 4 Nov: it was concert day... the children did very well... hooray!!! the parents were happy... some of them even give me "props"... thanks... but credits goes to the children themselves... the did well... and of cuz, God... thanks... MON. 7 Nov: didnt have school today because practicum haven started... so i went st anne to ...

well, i went to play majong with my st anne's ex-teachers yesterday... was not on a winning spirit until the end where i won each players $3.20... hahaaa.... the smallest amount you can win was 20 cents... the biggest was $3.20... hahaa... then in the end, won about 8-9 bucks... thank God... didnt disappoint anyone... at least i made my parents proud... hahahahahahahaha.....!!!

today, the K1s and 2s had their concert rehearsal at toa payoh HDB hub... on the bus, i had a great chat with Jorell, K2... so matured and well-educated.. a kid i know since last year's attachment... he performed during the last year's concert, but that was only a show.. now, they are the ones leaving, graduating... it's really quite heavy-hearted after knowing them and seeing them grow up, and now they are leaving the school... nonetheless, wish them best of luck... gonna miss them terribly... will i cry? guesssssss so... children are children... they have limits and unblamable faults or mischief... you just have to understand them... during the concert, some children waited so so so so so long for their turn to perform... especially the K1s... cuz the K2s have their graduation ceremony... perfection is never to be found in a child... pure and innocence will... after one rehearsal, children were beat and worned out... had a break, eat and chill, second round of performance...

meaning: Appreciative of benefits received; thankful. Expressing gratitude. Affording pleasure or comfort; agreeable. i'm very grateful for those who have been blessing me the last few days of "hell"... haha... Joachim's maid cooked porridge and sent it to my house... so nice... really very thankful... so blessed... some more the food not too oily, just nice for me... then the next day still brought joachim to my house and accompany me... Davin's mum smsed me and sent her regards... thank you for your concern... those prayed for me, thank you so much.... those i didnt mention, i know you still care and thank you too...!! =) to God, thank you too for always being there whenever i'm down or suffering... how grateful i am to you... thank you... ........ ........ ........... ....... ...... ........ ......... .......... I love You!!! "AMEN"

yesterday was one of the longest day i had. painful too. well, definitely cant compared to Kendrick's pain and Christ's suffering... vomited at around 2am... major vomit about 7 times... can see my teriyaki chicken all came out... very "xin ku"... after that, couldnt sleep well... got the wanna-puke feeling but i took it back into my digestive system... until morning, head was heavy and painful... couldnt even get up... so did not go church... smsed some of my cell ppl to pray for me... fever got worse at night... luckily got lynnette and enlin taking care... thanks!! today, felt better... at least i can walk... wanna thank those who prayed for me... care and concern... thank you... greatly appreciated...!! The Lord replied, "My precious child, I love you and i would never leave you. During your times of trial and sufferings, when you see only one set of footprints, that's when i was carrying you."

every child is special to me... everything they do meant a lot... especially i know it comes from the bottom of their hearts... how bad could their intentions be? principal, lao shi and i went Kendrick's house after sch today... i was quite anxious and nerve-wracking... especially when we were at his doorsteps... he stays like next to my block lo... hahaa.... then the mother opened the door... Kendrick was beside, so so so so so shy... then we were in the house chatting with the mother, seeing so many photos on the walls, frames, tables and album... so damn cute... felt so relief and better after seeing him so happy and could jump around... just felt a little guilty at the point of time when the mother talk to us... haizz.... Kendrick is so different... and i love to study about such children... i cant say he's that autistic... dunno... need more observation... not long, we were out of the house... kind off miss him in my class... and the lao shi always call other children his ...

meanings: 1. A serious injury or shock to the body, as from violence or an accident. 2. An emotional wound or shock that creates substantial, lasting damage to the psychological development of a person, often leading to neurosis. 3. An event or situation that causes great distress and disruption. something bad happened to my beloved boy... one of my boys closed the door... but at that same time, one of Kendrick's fingers was in the............(somewhere accross the handle) then........................................ya... it was so scary... finger broke... blood flow out quickly... i still flip open his nails... it was almost detached... my hands were like together, collecting the blood la... dunno what to do... then lao shi take him to the office and the hospital.... poor thing... i was traumatized... hmm, what a long sentence to explain what is traumatize... BUT IT'S A TRUE STORY!!! DAMN SHIT...!!! the principal said the nails was gone... had to also stitch the finger back.....

what is better to check than my results? hahaa... at least there is something to laugh about... basket... Academic writing --------------> B Child Dev ------------------------> C+ Designing Learning Corners --> B+ Field Practicum ---> B (this sucks) Financial Management --------> A Maths for young children -----> B PQS (useless) --------------------> B+ fine... laugh all you want... hahaa.... since i get this, i wonder Wan and Joy.........................hmmmm....... i'm actually demanding $50 from my parents for my only "A" grade... haha... *so wicked i am* hey, i'm not as bad as you think la... =)

Love is Uncondition, Jealousy is Unstoppable. Kisses are Undifined, Even if you're mine. -Joey

all i can think about is you... i wonder.... i ponder... i stutter.... i mumble.... though i'm at a disadvantage, though i now i dun get anything back from you, i care... i love... i appreciate... i understand... what i can do now is wait...painfully... i cant stop imagining... i cant stop doubting... O Dear God, please save me...!!

it's a great day today... sort off... went to tuition one kid in the morning... a very short one... cuz he have to go church for children's day celebration... then collected half of my pay and went home... Joachim called me later in the afternoon, about 1pm... then we talked and talked... then i on music on my media player and then he started singing together... it was JJ's song... haha... wasnt the same pitch but was fun... then he asked if i have "Tong Hua". opps, no i dun... but i can play on the piano.. then i played and sang together with him over the hp... hahaa... sudden cravin for KFC, i asked him to donate his coupons to me.... so i went his house to get... i stayed there with him for like an hour and that's the best 1 hour in my entire life... (must exaggerate a bit la) hahaa... we played, talked and....... love him lots... guess that's the children's day gift from my Heavenly Father... thank you!! went RM after that to eat... saw teacher jil...

we had Children's Day celebration today... children brought so much food... all the bread and carbo food... in the end, these food ended up in my house... kns... really had fun... but very very busy... choing here and there... and got performance... i play the wolf in red riding hood... puppet show... fun... i received muffins made for me from Emma and Evan... got my name on the container some more... haha... so nice of them... and i got a bunch of flowers from Jovan too... oh my God... so nice... got his photo on the card too... it's a belated teachers' day present.... very very nice... i love it...!!! "This is the day, This is the day that the Lord."

"Come and go with me to my Father's house, to my Father's house, to my Father's house. Come and go with me, to my Father's house where there's joy Joy JOY!!!" this song is stuck in my head after the children sang today... so nice... i was very cranky, and i mean VERY... hahaa... a kid fell from his chair today... Me: Are you okay? (trying not to laugh) Timothy: ya... not pain... Me: THEN FALL AGAIN LA!!! -.-" Timothy: i got muscle to protect me. Me: WHAT!? (ya right) hahaa... and many la... was like joking here and there lo... guess was the late night slp... all thanks to "Super Sunday" at such a late timing... haha... finally, my baobei Chen Jian Wen called me... hahaa... talked quite long... he said he will nv forget me... oh my..... hahaa... another blue moon today... hahaa... getting very busy le... preparing presents for my beloved ones... hahaa...

"who did who did who did who did who did shallow jo jo jonah? whale did whale did whale did whale did whale did shallow jo jo jonah!" the children in st anne sang this song today... so catchy and fun and nice... hahaa... i miss my school friends actually... (if any of my school friends are reading this, can you drop a msn to say you miss me too? hahhaahaa...!!!) children's day is coming... so excited.... hahaa... i am a child of God... so it's my day too... =)

"Tell the world that Jesus lives. Tell the world that, tell the world that. Tell the world that He died for me. Tell the that He lives again" God is great and God loves me... i believe God wont want to hurt me or even see me hurt... well, there's a reason behind everything and i just have to let go and give it to God... well, it's not easy at all... God is gracious la... have faith... just as what sermon says... trust God and not test God... working tomorrow... my lao shi called and said she wont be coming tomorrow... so it'll be a one-man show for me... hahaa... "How great is our God Sing with me how great is our God All will sing how great How great is our God" i love you

"ring ring!!" Joachim: Teacher Joey!!! .... ...to be continued that was like eight in the morning... hahaa... so cute... Me: you brush your teeth already? Joachim: no. Me: means you call me straight away when you wake up?! Joachim: err... no. i wait for 5 mins then call you. Me: the 5 mins is you walk down the stairs right? Joachim: ya. Me: hahahaha!!! Joachim: then you brush teeth already? Me: errr...............................................no. (grinz) we chat for 25 mins lo... piangz... hahaa... then watch Yu-Gi-Oh... hahaa... went for dance practice at about 1+pm... new steps with new song... okay la... need to buy my children's day present for my children soon...

my house was "electricity-free" since yesterday... not that we wanted to have a trial for any emergency or to save... but, according to my mum, she said "thanks to your dad." so, obviously, didnt pay bill... haha... but i was okay, living in a house without light and fan... i still went home to slp though my mum told me not to come home... well, i'm not that useless afterall... Thank God so much cuz both yesterday and today were breezy... and also ELECTRICITY IS BACK... today i made fruit salad for my nursery... so fun... cut all the fruits and mixed them... really laugh out... cuz i imitated those chief who toast the food... ya ya... you know... but i spilt not that much... lol... =) joachim called me... then i went to his house... hahaa... *secretly* gave him some of my left over fruit salad... haha... i really love him so much... guess i miss so much of the days we could spent together... (cuz i teach his class for some time) well, i'm still glad that i...

had my hair cut today... hmmm, comments? nah... like that lo... usually i cut short to spike... now, i tried smth different... well, not that different but a little different... whatever... just not as short as i would usually cut... it was not bad for just that few moments in the salon... after that........... probably hasnt gotten used to it... dun laugh hor!!! O.o weekends were okay... time passed very quickly... that means good or bad?? dear Ethan, Keith and Kester didnt come church on sunday... k lo... heard my ethan is going to be on milo advertisting package... and a lot tv advertistments... man.... will he be a changed person after all these? found out that i do not have lots of things to do though i have things to do... but the things i need to do are very time-consuming... so that makes me feel that there are many things to do... -.-" Chaos!! God bless all... ohohhh.... thanks lynnette and auntie Lucy for the lunch invitation+all the food... o",)

today, as i teach, i felt like a lectural... hahaa... teach my children using mind map... then talk and talk... hahaa... just like what my lecturals do, they talk and talk, did not care if anyone was listening... but of cuz, at times i do... lol... was mid-autumn festival celebreation today... teach for a while then when hall to watch performance... or rather a storytelling session both eng and chi... Kendrick, the a little autistim kid sat on my lap almost to the end of the show... i am really liking this child... although he is not intellectually developed, he is VERY INTELLIGENT!!! and he helped me wipe my board, close door and many other things... love him...! joachim called to before i even dismissed the children... said he going mall cuz his bro getting a hair cut... i told him i will go there and look for him soon... but who knows....teachers' meeting...!!! -.-"zZ saw the announcement book that had "to - All teachers and Joey, meeting at 2.45 in the office." ...

late for work today again... saw E-An and his grandma while walking to school... hahaa... first time i met him with his grandma and somemore SO EARLY!!! he is usually just on time and his father would drive him... in a BIG car la... but today was exceptional... well, i went over and say "hi"... guess what?! his grandma said "hi" and then told E-an to follow me to sch... she then pass E-an to me and left...!!! huh!? i was stunned la... not like near to sch or what... k.. then walk with him lo... reached sch but door not open yet cuz too early... what to do with him? cant let him stay outside la... so brought him in... so funny... but if i see his father on the way to st anne, he would definitely say "ok, follow kor kor Joey in.." wa... nothing to say... today teaching was okay... tr magdalene bought pineapple for me... so i taught my children about pineapple... of cuz, cutting of the pineapple "live"... hahaa... not easy but it was fun... the chil...

watched Yu-Gi-Oh since 4+, 5pm until like almost 10pm!!! man... time flies... it was very nice but...it was in CANTONESE!!! ahhh... fortunately, i understand a little... plus sub-title was present... well, just to add this entry because it is Royston's birthday... so cute... guess what was my present for him? a BIG BIG...........HUG!!! lol... it was more than sufficient... (: Royston is so damn cute lo... got this boy boy look though he's K2 now... well, Happy Birthday Roy!! tomorrow is SETH'S birthday...!! the one that taught me arachnids!! watched my show till so late leh... so didnt get him a present... hahaa... nvm la... ;p maybe a hug will do too... blehz!!

Exams are over...!!! or should i say "were over"!!! well, guess many of my classmates are rejoicing right now... but there are pros and cons... relax is a gain but cash is a loss... hahaha... hmm, been at work for the last two days... alright la... can get along with my nursery kids... i have 2 a little autistic kids... BUT!!! THEY ARE "TA MA DE" SMART..!!! am quite attached to them now... i like to deal with such kids la... one of them really impressed me today... he completed a K2 maths game that i dun expect him to do that... according to what i've studied, i guess this is nv gonna happen... haiz, just shocked, FLABBERGASTED!!! i look at him like....O.o fell asleep a few times during work... one was during music and movement time, my partner teacher took the class and i was knocked out at the side... then, after school, Joachim called me... went Rivervale mall with him... hahaaa... guess what the maid told me? Joachim's brother (Pri 3) has his own hp and...

How can a young man keep his way pure? By living according to your word. I seek you with all my heart; do not let me stray from your commands. I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you. -Psalm 119:9-11 thanks marvin for the verses... it touches me actually... well, i always thank God for wonderful friends He given to me... for that, i am who i am... although irritating at times... (: had fund raising today... it was alright... fun and interractive... is it? sold pok piah, cookies, brownies, tau pok, wafflers, etc... earned about $1,400... I KNOW LESS THAN ST ANNE'S FEAST!!! #$%^@% ... k... anyway, God is a loving and forgiving God... i was happy... Ethan waved to me... guess that was just enough... couldnt ask for more... it was painful though... just pain leh.... dunno why... probably love this kid so much that i couldnt let go... not even to act like i nothing happened... "Jealousy knows no limit". true but no link right? just feel like typing...

study? that word is complete scraped off my mind.... guess what's in my mind are all my children... DLE paper is just crap... just thanks to Wan... and thank God i didnt study like mad... i have no mood... many things gone wrong... yet, i want to love God more... maybe all obstacles draw me closer to Him? man... i hope i could take down my masks at times... but i cant... am i too useless? am i ashame of myself? WHO AM I?! the earth can be as bright when you're happy... yet it can also be as dark when you're down... well, i think i cant see light at the moment... i want: -> to be happy and not fake -> to be loved -> Joachim cuz i know he loves me http://www.friendster.com/viewphoto.php?p=e&pid=145043702&uid=9282142 -> my old Ethan )': -> someone i can hold on to -> a pure heart ("v") guess all i want is you, Jesus...

"Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death." -James 1:15 today definitely wasn't my day... somehow, i know that God still loves me and i love Him... Eldon called this morning about 11am... it's been 2 days since he last call... we chatted for about 5mins... then, not long after that, Joachim called... hahaa... so cute... then we chat and chat... ok, about 12mins then we ended the conversation... lol... long yet useless day... played piano, play online pool and when i started taking out my notes to read, BOMM...!!! i went to my dreamland... basket... woke about 5pm+... felt so useless... played piano again and play online pool and BOMM..!!! (this time the "bomm" refers to the closing of the door...) went out for dinner myself... while i was feeling lonely and whatever, i met Gerald (st anne kid) at the foodcourt... didnt go over and say "hi"... just sat a distant away and watched hi...

"Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it." -Proverbs 22:6 JOACHIM CALLED EARLY THIS MORNING... hahaa... at 8am+... woke me up... then i realized it's him and i open wide my eyes and chat with him... since i was so sleepy, all i said was how much i missed him... of cuz, he said he missed me too... well, he was coughing... bad enough for a child... i guess they were from me... lol... then "love you", "muack" and "bye"... went back to slp... then dreamt of him... -.-" teacher mag called at 9 plus and asked me if i wanted breakfast... "how nice"... hahaa... ask her to buy bee hoon for me... went st anne kindergarten about 10am... do and do and do and do alone in the classroom... OH MY GOD!!! i actually made a corner into a house with my bare hands!! damn i cant believe it... it was........................beautiful... (not that i wanted to show off but... hahaa) http://www.friendster.com/v...

it's my god brother's birthday today!!! yipee... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KELVIN HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...!!! sms him at 12am sharp... ehhh, not that sharp la... but the idea was there... woke up late.. took cab down to teacher trace's kindergarten to visit her... she was surprised.. hahaa... then helped her do her corner... i designed and decorated a forest for her... not bad... met lynnette... played pool... laugh till teeth almost drop... then took cab home... reached home, took candle and lighter and went out again... it was almost 12am... went compasspoint's 7-11 and bought a taramisu's cheesecake... know quite cheepskate la but no choice... went to my god-bro's hse... got lost lo... basket... but managed to figure it out in the end... then was outside his doorstep... sms him, ask him to call me... then start lighting the candle on the cheesecake.. IDIOT!!! damn windy lo... iritating... then ask him to come out... the...

it is so so sooo painful let go of someone you once loved most... in fact, it is more than painful... cant find any word to describe the feeling... no way that any distraction will work, since that person you have to let go is the one you love most... this feeling is worse than failing the major exam, or even losing a relative... when one is dead, you will be depressed but after a while, you learn to accept the fact that they are already not on earth... but losing someone you love is already depressed... moreover, you still see the person again... this cause more salt to be added unto your wound... haiz... overcome?! how? you just have to accept it... putting on a fake mask or a smile... well, no matter how strong you are, you cant avoid... but good actors/actress might get away with it... anyhow, i will always love you...!!! my day was made seeing ethan... wave and smile... then, i saw him again... i called out "ETHAN!!! CALL ME!!!" and he said "HELLO KOR KOR JOEY!!!...

guess what? i'm employed!!! i'm so happy... love you God... i felt so blessed... gonna teach the nursery... at first i paniced... nursery is not my cup of tea... well, after helping P take care of the nursery today, felt alright... okay la... stayed back in st anne and decorated the classroom for the next term, FRUITS AND VEGETABLES!!! starting work on the 13th sep... teaching hiphop is quite tough... moreover, they are just 5 years old... guess i'm too ambitious... but i will nv forget the comments the children made... "teacher joey is the best," said Jerome, "he's the only teacher that can dance so well." anyway, love the present Jerome gave ... A ducky TIE!!! so cute... walked joachim home today... saw some workers doing some electrical thingy... the maid said there will be electrical cut-off.. so i joked at Joachim and said that if there werent electricity, he couldnt call me... well, after sending him home, he called me lo... "call me so fa...