it is so so sooo painful let go of someone you once loved most... in fact, it is more than painful... cant find any word to describe the feeling... no way that any distraction will work, since that person you have to let go is the one you love most... this feeling is worse than failing the major exam, or even losing a relative... when one is dead, you will be depressed but after a while, you learn to accept the fact that they are already not on earth... but losing someone you love is already depressed... moreover, you still see the person again... this cause more salt to be added unto your wound... haiz... overcome?! how? you just have to accept it... putting on a fake mask or a smile... well, no matter how strong you are, you cant avoid... but good actors/actress might get away with it... anyhow, i will always love you...!!!

my day was made seeing ethan... wave and smile... then, i saw him again... i called out "ETHAN!!! CALL ME!!!" and he said "HELLO KOR KOR JOEY!!!" and was jumping up and down for joy... i thought those days were over... anyway, i tried to be strong and fact and act and .... and... and... was overjoyed by the teachers' day gift from keith and kester... oh, and thanks kirby for making it in the card... then, ethan came by and sat beside me... wow...!! that was so ultra unexpected lo... chat like less than 3 sentences... okay, that was rather satisfying... nothing lo... he was playing his game... no more like 2 months ago attachment... trying to move away from it... okay, "bye bye kor kor joey" and he left with his father... well, thank God for planning all these... if not i dunno how will i feel then... guess this blessing comes from the offering i gave.. haha... love you Jesus... http://www.friendster.com/viewphotos.php?uid=5188973

went bowling... had fun, laughs many many more... well, couldnt remember much... just that i had 3 X in 2 games... that's kinda bad though... anyway, was quite happy... paid $2 only... couldnt remember much... oh ya... only that the ball was stucked in the middle of the lane during the game and two of the people from the chinese youth walked to get the ball from the middle... of cuz, both fell together with a loud "BANG!!!" that gave me a hard laugh out... bet they had their lesson learnt...

plan for the week:
-visit teacher trace
-study la!!!
-go st anne and do up the learning corners
-get a present for my god-brother
-sms Joachim