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God...?

okay... let's be honest here...

"joey. when's the last time you did your quiet time?"

haizz... sigh...

firstly, i'm drifting away from God and i know it... it kind off hurt and i really felt disappointed about it... spiritually, i know i'm starving...

i know He's always with me...
i know He knows everything...
i know He's watching my every moves...

so? it seems like i dont even care...

church today caused me to really think about what a christian i've been these few days, during my working days and even now as i am not working... we had quiz on the 4 gospel... lo and behold, i just felt so ashamed... being the oldest in my group, i knew nothing about the answers, none of the 20... it just shows how long has my bible been lying in the same position in my room...

joey joey joey... God calls you all the time but why didnt you listen? can you hear him?

i just felt like crying, cry and cry and cry... but where are all my tears?

forgive? the only person i cant really forgive now is probably...

myself...


God, where art Thou?
i just want to fall in love with you again...
in your presence, i know i'm safe...
Holy Lord, Prince of Peace...
come, i need you...
i'm just nothing without you...
here i am, take me...

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