Joey_("v")_Jesus

oh man... what a wonderful morning this is... woke up about 720am and got ready to go to ST ANNE'S CHURCH cuz they've a funfair there... cant wait to see my children... the teachers from the kindergarten have their own stall themselves... i'm going there to help... when i reached about 8am, not many people... but then later, i saw so many of my lovely and missed kids!!! and some are ex-st anne's church kindergarten children that i lost contact with... it's so damn nice and happy to see them again la... name those who i love, i see them today... so glad to see them... really, somemore they didnt forget me... YEAH!!! saw my favourite Ashton... my gosh... he's so cute... but the parents? hmm, hahaaa... i dunno he look like who la... maybe look like me...!!! (: self-made happiness... also happy... well, he didnt see me at first... then i walked behind him and attract his attention... when he saw me, his eyes grew bigger... hahaa... i smiled at him and waved... he wa...

brought my guitar to childcare on thursday and friday... the children were all very excited.. well, the thing is....... seriously, i have NEVER sang "Tong Hua" so many times in a day in my entire life... really... and all i can sing is that song, and the "Huo Cai Tian Tang" about a girl who's mother had died and was alone in the chilling cold snow selling matches, and JJ "Yi Qian Nian Yi Hou" and another most sang song, "LAO SHU AI DA MI"... hahahaaa... friday, about 610pm, the K1s came in my classroom... because it is time where all the children are gathered and it's the only place where parents will come and pick their children from... well, Coleman, a cute little dude, who i dont really know very well... yet it's so amazing how our relationship just got so close... it's just the every morning greetings and waves and goodbyes and smiles that made me noticed him and draws me close to him... but i didnt talk to him much... just on...

Why?! why am i feeling like this? am i just putting on a mask that says "i'm happy" but deep inside i'm actually not? i really hate this feeling now... my whole spirit is low... i dunno why... never felt this before.. heard of people having this feeling before... but i never expect myself to feel this way.. cannot describe but it's just negative... sad and sad... i've been thinking a lot... so so much... i dun even expect myself to think so much... to the extent where even the impossible of the impossible, i am thinking now... WHY!?!? i'm very moody... filled with disappointment... couldnt be happy... even as i flip through all my hard copies of pictures with my beloved children, i couldnt feel anything... arrggghhh..!!! why?! is it because now it's the ghost festival and all the spirits are disturbing? i went to see E-an just now... thought that he could just change things around... or even make me a little happier... i was wrong... i reached there......

yeah... 4 hours break today... hmm, me, joy and wan went to eat at coffee canyon... at...... dunno where... well, after that, we went to eat....... ISLAND CREAMERY!!! yum yum!!! actually i had that on last mon and sat... a tub for each day... that makes 3 tubs for myself... ahhhhHHHhhH...!!! fats fats fats...!!! BURN OUR FATS!!! >. last monday ate tek tarek ice cream... then sat and today had horlicks... so nice... but, dont say i'm addicted... say....i'm scared already... so much icecream...!!! ;p but definitely will go there again... we were there since 1pm... then, as time passes by, quite a few St. margarette's girls girls came by... and was just thinking, "joyce? where are you?" hahahaahaa... since it's her school... then, fell asleep while helping wan cut her field prac stuff... hahaha... slept so long... tired tired la... "sorry"... LOL...!!! now having lecture...!!! zzz... so sianz... lalala ... bye! i miss you so much, my little E-an...!!...

dearest E-an, "...i had the time of my life no i never felt this way before.. yes, i swear... it's the truth... and i'm holding on to you..." missing you more each day...

i'm so proud of my ITALY!!! here's the losers and winers... LOSERS!!! who's the biggest LOSER ? He is... WINNER!!! LIPPI!!! AND THE BIGGEST WINNER... LOL...!!!

YEAH!!! ITALY.........!!! lousy germans!!! go home!!! go italy go...!!! one goal for country, another for Argentina (revenge)...!!!

i miss Thailand kids i miss the neighbours i miss the soccer gang i miss st anne's kids i miss my year 2 attachment kids i miss seeing E-an i miss going Joachim's house i miss kids in church i miss hugging my buddy kid i miss my drummer boy i miss all my naughty boys my new attachment kids? hmmm...... what's opposite of miss? hit? well, a little... and i hope i will miss them more... haiz...