Joey_("v")_Jesus

didnt go attachment today... went st anne's church kindergarten to get some stuff... went home and did some stuff for decoration in the classroom... then, at about 8pm, i went to see E-an at his taekuando class... he's so damn cute la... he waved to me, came by and talked to me, we laughed, we did hands signal when he is "fighting"... i am so so happy la... met his dad... very quite stress cuz the dad very professional and smart... he was sharing with me about languages and of course his english was good... ya, but he's a very nice dad... really nice... though my day wasnt that good, E-an definitely made my day... though it's at night, but he just made it end so well... i felt so enlightened and forgot the unhappy thoughts... he is my HAPPY APPLE!!! i love him lots... thank you Jesus for him... and for teacher Trace (:

I JUST HATE MYSELF SO BADLY NOW..!! AT THIS VERY MOMENT..!! WHY WHY WHY?!?!! FOR 3 STRAIGHT DAYS I HAVE NOT BEEN DOING ANYTHING, NOT GONE TO ANY MORNING CLASS!!! AND NOW I MISSED MY ATTACHMENT TODAY!!! #$%^&*(@ AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

sometimes i just feel like being a child again... being cuddled by someone i really love, being kissed by someone who really love me, being naughty like jumping on the bed and spilling my food on the floor because i dont wanna eat it, being sang to bed, being looked after, playing toys in school, being spoilt by people...... that's why i like this blog skin... and a little boy's dream is that he will always be a little boy.... and i am really thankful that i know there are many people still loves me and treat me like a little boy... (: Matthew 19:14 - Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."

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i'm not at all enjoying practicum now... havent been doing much... just scolding and being firm all these while... except for one little boy in nursery... ohh man... look so so damn bloody cute la... and he's like the motivator for me to go attachment... hahahaaha... seriously, is bloody bloody cute... arrggghhh~!~ i just find this funny... i was doing drawing at this table with a few children and i overheard some children said, "eee, your drawing not nice... so ugly..." and i did not react but wanted to observe how this child reacts... so, as usual, this child complains to me... she said, "teacher Joey, they all say my drawings very ugly..." so i turned and look at the drawings and i LAUGHED so hard in my head la... because it is really very ugly... i mean quite la... and in my head i was like "ya, it's ugly" and then i said, "children, please dont say that..." and continued my drawings... hurhurhur...

finally, after almost 5 visits to the childcare centre, my "Ah Beng" attatude is out... i grabbed the guy's shirt and was talking to him like he owed me some thousand bucks... he sobbed... he was sorry... reason why i did that was because he was playing with his food... he was making fun of the food... he was acting he got chocked... he dropped many rice on the floor... he said that papaya was apple... the form teacher was bathing the other children... we are behind time-table... he apologised... i still love him...

today, i woke up feeling very upset and disappointed... because...... yesterday, did not sleep and waited till 3am to watch Italy play USA and then came home at 815am, because i went to play soccer with Jericho from 6am, sat at toilet bowl for very very longgg cuz i know got shit but it just not coming out, took cab down church cuz i playing guitar for kids' ministry, and was late... then after that, had meeting at 1.30pm... till 3+pm... suppose to meet Yan Ping and Weeleong for lunch at 3pm and was late again... then, after eating, went to play arcade, snooker and SUBWAY!!! by then, i was crazy... like drunk because of lack of sleep... was talking nonsense and laugh till i fall... and really fall on the floor... -.-" then, after subway, went eat tao hui(dou hua)... and chat chat chat... then, took cab home... on the cab, i fell asleep... as soon as i board the cab... then i found out i was like sleep-talking lo... really very tired... when i reached home, i on the tv, wantin...

He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." -Matthew 17:20 He replied, "If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, 'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it will obey you. -Luke 17:6 "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." -John 16:33

why not good? because i have been eating macdonalds... UNHEALTHY... i know... but i cant help... every night, without fail... Nuggets student mwal with tea and 4 packets of sugar and 7 packets of creamer... and watch WORLD CUP!!! hahahahha... till 5am... zzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZz -.- stupid channel 5 dun show all world cups... make me fat... blame you!!

i watched "So You Think You Can Dance" and today was the finals... it was so nice and cool... arggghh... how i wished i could just be half skilled like them... so damn nice and pro... and when they announced the champion winner, i had tears in my eyes la... dunno why... felt so emotional and touched... well deserved win... i've watched so many dances they had and really, all so professional and so touching... dance can tell a story!!! hahaha anyway, congrates Nick... you are awesome...!!!

some of my friends left for thailand today... actually made some gift for lynnette... but i forgot to bring... felt like crying... sad... "sorry lynnette..." anyway, went to church after that... and my day are made better, thanks to God!!! hahahaaa... and i really felt so loved and loving others so much... so much... played piano for children's ministry today... was fun... enjoyed myself... though not perfect... mistakes here and there... but overall, it was great... hahahahaa... at least for a person without a grade... ;p glory to HIM!!! many things happened after that... lazy to type... but i know in my heart that i love all my kids so much that i cant explain... as deep as the ocean ba... cuz God loves them and me and you deeper that the ocean...!! (: Ethan: "you are always a blessing to me... i used to always be there you physically... and although now i cant, my spirit still will... be sure that you will always be the boy you used to be... thanks for the memorie...

hEY people... thank you guys so so much for praying!!! it's really a miracle...!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!! the operation has been postpone back to 2 months later... YIPEE... and my heart is jumping for joy for him.... at least: 1) we have more time for prayers for this little boy... (and believe that miracles really happen!!!) 2) he have more space to breathe and need not worry so much at the moment... (since the operation came too sudden) 3) i have time to encourage him more and visit him when he's in the hospital... (since my attachment is over and i'm FREE...) so, thanks for all your prayers... i love you all..!! *hugs*

God is good, all the time... Gawain, dun worry... God is with you, me too... you must be strong... people, if you are reading, i just ask of you for a minute of prayer at least, pray for this little primary 2 boy, who will be going for an eye operation this wednesday... while other primary school kids are enjoying their holidays... :( Gawain is a normal, loving and cheerful boy... very homely and good boy... had double vision... yet, he, in St Andrews Junior, is 1st in class for his studies in primary one final year... and now, primary 2 mid-year, he got 1st again... please, pray for healing, protection and bravery... just one minute from now... thanks!! (: i will really appreciate that...