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who am i?

well, my days are numbered and soon after, i wont be your teacher... i cant see you that often... i wont smile that often... i wont get hugs that often...

just know that...

it is you who can make my smile last forever
it is you who can cause me to forget all my worries
it is you whom i can hug and not let go





but nobody knows that behind this smile is a Joey that even Joey himself doesnt know who Joey is... sometimes, i just act too well... sometimes, my mask are just enough to make you believe i'm happy...


Lord Jesus, only you know who i really am...

God, i know i am not worthy
at times, i feel like a leaf
turning brown
and that's because i wasnt strong enough
and all i'm doing now is holding on tightly to you
not wanting to letting go
though i'm still breathing
though i'm still getting the sunlight
though i'm still drinking your water
i wish i was as green as i was first born
if i knew you would be down there catching me
i would have let myself go
but i'm not taking that risk
because even if i let go
i know You would not let go
God, please turn me into a new leaf
would you?
and please, dont let go...

I have made it too small in my eyes,
Oh Lord, forgive me...
And I have believed in a lie,
That you were unable to help me...

but now Oh Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart, and show yourself strong
and in my live, and with my song
Oh Lord be magnified,
Oh Lord be magnified...

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