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dear Lord

it's YOKO day again...

this is andrew...



this is william...

they definitely made my day and i believe that i've stepped into their life... now is to be a great role model and really change them and help them out...

after the afternoon children were dismissed, i got a call... hmm, it's charlor calling all the way from thailand... i was so happy but on the other hand, so sad that she sounded so disappointed and lost, knowing that me and the singapore team were unable to go and help...

i seriously felt so low and painful in my heart... and to hear from her, it's really very very depressing... she even said with her own voice, "we are all very sad that you cannot come." i just didnt know how to respond.. i really felt like crying... there were just moments of silence and i thought, why? why?

charlor is really like a mother to me... loving me and treating me like her own son.. i can really sense her love and care for me... even calling me from afar touched me... i love her, i love the children there...

"oh God, i cry out loud... hoping You'll hear this... asking You oh Father that You'll open a door for me and bring forth me to bless Your people... i really dont want Charlor to feel so lost and sad... i know they have not enough helper and man power... Lord, have mercy and speak to me... if a sign is needed, i ask for one... ... ..." Amen

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God."

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