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Unbearable

look at the time now!!! hmm, 10.34am... on a wednesday morning... that would be Elizabeth's lesson... who, with a laptop wouldnt play with it? my God.... who she's talking to?

last friday was st anne's last day of school... while many children are rejoicing because their holidays starts the next day, i was moaning because this very day was the last day i see my K2 children before they proceed to their individual primary school... it was so hard for me to leave... i had already missed the first lesson this morning... i had to push and drag myself to step out of the class and the church... pain and brokenness drenched over me... i just cant let go!!! oh oh oh, how i will miss them terribly... i reached school with a heart not with me, a soul wandering around and a mind not working... people around me will know how i feel... though i dont really explain or describe, but actions speak louder than words...

i want to pray for them, not to remember me but not to forget me...

i've already placed myself as a seed in every little angels' hearts and i cant do much... it depends on them whether this seed of mine, in 10 years time will wither and die or became a tall, strong tree... they may either remember me clearly, i am familiar to them but they cant remember or they dun even know who i am...















dearest angels,
i miss you like the plants misses the sun at night...
i love you all like the mouse(lao shu) loves the "da mi"...
i pray for all that God will protect you all...
i hope all of you will never forget me...
korkorjoey

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